illuminations

I went back and read most of my old postings, and they all seem rather morose. I decided that the only times that I feel like writing on my blog are when I am feeling a little down, hence the pessimistic undertones of it's entries. SO, I feel the need to clarify something:

I am on the adventure of a lifetime. This is the most exciting thing I have done/ will ever do and I am having the best time doing it. Yes, there are times when I question it all, but hey, I question everything. This journey is the single best thing I have ever done for myself. From now on I vow to continually thank myself for being brave enough to do it, and to not waste any one minute of it.

I mentioned to someone via facebook chat earlier today that sometimes I felt like I am just wasting time waiting for something to happen. In all actuality, this is the first time in my life that I am not just waiting for something to happen, I am actively searching for an opportunity to make something happen. Also, this is certainly the most fun I have ever had wasting time, if that is in fact what I am doing. I wonder if any of this makes sense.